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A Final Testament of a Most Unlikely Messiah

 

The Donkey Incident

1.
Shortly after we finish eating and resume with the plunge, the crowd and I pass by a traveling vegetable salesman dragging behind him his donkey; he is clearly on his way home.

2. As we calmly pass by him, and he doesn’t seem in any way interested in us or intrigued by our presence in the suq in such a large number, we notice that his donkey is relieving himself on the ground as it walks. People begin to point at it and laugh, although they must have seen such a scene a thousand times before; as for the tourists, well, they stop and  begin taking pictures of course. After all, they are here to document our shame.

3. Naturally, I cannot let this opportunity go unexploited, can I?

4. Ten thousands years ago, such a sight was considered to be a sign of civilization.” I say without bothering to stop or slow down. “For cities were just getting established then, in Jericho, Çatal Hüyük and elsewhere;  donkey shit was  just a hapless by-product of the newly emerging market economy.

5. Today, however, donkey shit doesn’t play this kind of a role, does it? People take acid rain and the ozone hole  instead as  clear signs of civilization. Which only goes to show that the true definition of civilization, at any particular moment in time, is pollution. And shame.

6. This, however, proves to be only the first thought inspired by the encounter. In a few moments, there is more to come.

7. It is strange, isn’t it? I mean we are a strange people, aren’t we? We are all willing to die for this country, we are all willing to tie bombs to our waists and blow ourselves up to smithereens, should we get convinced that our country would indeed benefit from such an act.

8. Yet, none of us seems to be willing to live for the country, I mean really live for the country. I don’t even think that many of us do understand what such a concept, living for one’s country, a much nobler expression of  patriotism than martyrdom can ever hope to be, actually means. Well, let me demonstrate its meaning once and for all.

9. I say this as I head back to where we have just passed by the donkey and where the trail of shit extends before our eyes for a couple  of meters, more or less. Then I stop, take off my shirt, and with it I begin to clean the donkey shit off the street.

10. My disciples immediately rush to find things, plastic bags, sheets of paper, anything, to help me with.  The only person who does the same thing I have, that is, the only person to take off his shirt, which was quite expensive-looking in this case, and use it to do the job, is none other than, you guessed it, SOGO.

11. Blessed  are the repentant wherever they may be, whoever they may be.” I say as I look him in the eyes and smile. This time he doesn’t look away and he smiles back.

12. All  the people of the world claim to love their countries,” I say to the crowd now completely busy picking up every piece of garbage and shit off the street and throwing them in the nearest container, basking in the cleansing, purifying glow of such a seemingly disgusting task, “but very few know how to live for it. Our countries have a greater need for our lives than our deaths. Can you understand this? Can you really understand?

13. Well, I rather doubt it. I really do. I know that most of us still  don’t understand. I know that most of us will probably never understand. Still, I have to believe, I need to believe so I can go on with my mission, so that my sacrifice can be worthwhile, that there are enough of us out there who do understand.

14. After I wash  my hands in one of the local shops, and as I proceed to continue with my plunge, I approach the diplomat and say:

(The East-West Divide)

15. If the friendly manners of the East hide behind them much fear  and suspicion, the ‘civilized’ manners of the West are in no way different. We have seen that very clearly when the Westerners came to our countries, and we have seen this even more clearly when we went to their countries.

16. We all miss an important piece of the puzzle, don’t we? We all still need to be cleansed somehow. We all still need to be prepared,  each in his own particular way, for the final coming-together.

17. And one thing we all definitely need to be cleansed off is the terrible disease of measuring things and events and people by percentages.

18. For in a world teeming with more than six billion polluting inhabitants, even the minutest of percentages can hide behind it millions of yearning individuals who may not be so happy or tame, who may not remain so powerless-silent-impotent for long.

 

 

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Have you really forgotten who I am, Brother? Have you really forgotten who I am, Brother?

 


I

lust

for

salvation,

 Brother,

as

though

it

were

a

woman,

and

I

 -

 a

man.

 
 

 
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